Dragging Insecurity Out: What does God say about this?

Before entering my 1st year in highschool we had to move from a different house because of business matters. So definitely there will be different people, different environment, different peers, and most especially different school to go to. I entered highschool in one of the most popular schools in that town. First day of school and i promised myself that i would want my 4 years of highschool education to be very fruitful and productive. As i entered the gates of my new school fear, doubt, and worry ate me up (well not literally and not obvious lol) thinking it would be a bit hard to make new friends, to know all the rules and regulations of the school itslef, and to actually fit in with the people. I can still remember that first day when i really don't know where to go so what i did is i followed that one school girl who happened to be riding with me on the same school service. As i was looking at her, the only thing that popped in my head was, SHE IS REALLY PRETTY. Never did i imagine myself becoming like her, her height was everything i have wanted for me, her skin complexion is to die for, and her face is just flawless that you would want to strangle yourself if you would accidentally scratch it. So yeah going back to my story (lol) i followed her and well surprisingly she is of the same year as me but she's not in the same section as i was assigned to, being all shy i didn't bother asking her where my room was, what i did is explored the building, luckily i found my room and section just at the 2nd floor. I entered the room and saw everyone talking, having fun, horseplaying, i even saw two boys running around playing tag. I walked inside silently with my head down and found an empty chair at the 2nd row. The bell rang and i was surprised to see them preparing and going out. Some girls put on powder on their face, sprayed perfume, combed their hair, and looked in the mirror to see if they were pretty enough to go out already. I followed them and saw them falling in line for the flag ceremony, so as usual the line should be from the smallest to the highest person in class, wanna know where i was ? I'M 2ND ! 2ND SMALLEST in line (yes don't rub it in). To cut the long story short, my highschool years wasn't the best years of my life, though there were moments to be proud of it wasn't enough to suffice the feeling i had back then. As shy and awkward as i can be, i took in the criticisms, judgements, and ugly commentaries of my classmates everyday. I struggled fitting in. I wanted to belong to them, i wanted to be like the popular girls wherein like they get all the good compliments, the wise praises, and the genuine appreciation. I lacked confidence in me, i lacked that love that is supposed to come from me as well. So what i did i engaged myself in extra co-curricular activities of the school and workshops outside the school. Workshops and Club activities that will help boost my confidence. I joined singing competitions, dance battles, and was able to join a pageant in school as well that made me become Ms. Consolinian 2008 (Consolinian- refers to the students who are studying in that school) 3 years after that still i haven't passed the crown (I am not that sure anymore if they still had the pageant). Let's cut the story a bit more shorter, those experiences made me value myself more, saw more worth in me, and built up confidence that i lacked before. Back in college i thought that kind of battle in me was done, only to find out i wasn't even halfway through. Going to a prestigious university and seeing more beautiful women more than me only made a way for me to get a bit frustrated. One time in college i had my first boyfriend, i thought having one was going to help me regain my confidence back, but no it really did not. Constantly feeling that you are not enough, being told by him that his bestfriend's girlfriend is prettier, being told that you need not to fix yourself because you're enough but making you feel like it's the opposite was really a dreadful experience. I have cried and cried a lot of nights because of that nightmare. Your friends teasing you of your appearance is not really helpful, making fun of how you look every single day is not fun.

I always wondered that time if God can see me experiencing those ordeals.

One day when i got back at my dorm from a very tiring school day, i was scrolling on Facebook and saw a post from someone that said: "I discovered that my insecurities and my flaws were things that I actually need to embrace, and I let them become my superpowers." - Skylar Grey.

I realized it for the very first time, God created me in His own image and likeness, He created me with His own personal blueprint of me, He created me... THE WAY HE WANTED ME TO BE. You can never please anyone BUT God. The way you love yourself, the way you embrace yourself, the way you prove yourself that you are more than enough is pleasing to God. He created you not to dislike yourself but to love yourself and develop it to its highest potential.

It made me remember a Bible Verse that says: Ephesians 2:19-22 "Whenever you feel unloved' unimportant or insecure, remember to whom you belong."

I began loving myself more, i began appreciating what God has given me, I began embracing the way i really am, why? Because God made me uniquely beautiful with my own designed blueprint especially created by Him.

With Him, you will never feel any insecurity, you will never look down on yourself, and you will never belittle your capabilities. How to Drag all your Insecurities out? 1. LIVE IN THE MOMENT. DON'T LET YOUR PAST HAUNT YOU.

Life is to be enjoyed not to be a vessel of insecurities. We call it past because it's "done" "it already happened". Enjoy what God has given you because the best things in life comes to those who are embracing life everyday like it's always the last. 2. LOVE YOURSELF.

Actually this is self-explanatory. Why drown into all those criticisms when you can just listen to it and love yourself even more. I believe that those people who criticize you doesn't really have anything interesting in their lives that's why they make fun of others, they want the spotlight to be centered to them so that when they criticize people will actually look and listen to them, making them feel that they are right and superior to anyone. God loves you more than you'll ever know, that's why love yourself as well, He is proud to have created a wonderful and unique human being. 3. DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY.

People who does things that makes them happy live longer, why? Because they don't entertain stress and frustration (well not literally like not entertain at all, they just are not up for too much drama you know) . If you love what you do, you forget to entertain what others have to say about you, you just don't care because it makes you happy (of course know what's Right from Wrong darling, not all things are right and not all are wrong, get what i mean ? I think i messed it up haha lol) PLUS ! Being happy and manifesting it over your life makes you look years younger (true story lol). 4. ALWAYS REMEMBER: IN EVERYTHING YOU DO, GOD IS ALWAYS WITH YOU AND ALWAYS PROUD OF YOU.

Self-explanatory as well. No matter if a lot of people looks down on you, no matter whether they don't like you or love you... GOD LOVES YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING IN THIS WORLD. HE CREATED YOU WITH JOY IN HIS HEART, HE CREATED YOU WITH SO MUCH LOVE. HE LOVES YOU JUST THE WAY YOU ARE. That's why smile often, prove the world you are more than enough, and show them love from God.